theletters;

thepatient;

theappointment;

thereleased;

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the other patients;

words choked out at 03:18 pm on Wednesday, December 29, 2004


anil. http://cravingforloveyetnotwantingtobeloved.blogspot.com
asri's crew / amc. http://freewebs.com/aerosol-mechanic-counterpartz
azizah. http://baby-kechiq.blogspot.com
caine. http://livejournal.com/users/caineng
caroline. http://sixty-xstitches.blogspot.com
cheryl. http://xanga.com/dirtystain
daffie. http://daffysmile.blogspot.com
delvin. http://notorious-del.blogspot.com
dez. http://razorsharpkisses.blogspot.com
eelynn. http://burpie.blogspot.com
gracie. http://imperfect-treasury.blogspot.com
hakim. http://kemoz.blogspot.com
ingrid. http://inebriated-.blogspot.com
jamie. http://crazieebeautiful.cjb.net
jann. http://xanga.com/december9ine
jeffrey. http://duperfrozeiie-.blogspot.com
jenney. http://xanga.com/meandthemoonxx
karsten. http://understandasideofyou.blogspot.com
kennef. http://kenneth.song-bow.com
kenneth / publicknu:sense. http://mdsamor.cjb.net
khairul's band: the usual suspects. http://usualsuspectsonline.cjb.net
leefei. http://myveryownme-icyash.blogspot.com
lia. http://sixteen-sugar.blogspot.com
maddie. http://monkeyeatmonkey.blogspot.com
magdalene. http://chocolatemag.blogspot.com
merv. http://cantstopthebumrush.blogspot.com
nathan. www.projektzoo.com
nik. http://xanga.com/glamourswirls
peihua. http://www.kennethgirl.blogspot.com
puja. http://www.puja-imoet.tk
russell. http://devils_regime.blogspot.com
samantha. http://quixotictales-.blogspot.com
samuel. http://revolution4.blogspot.com
shaun. http://hollywood-mobscene.blogspot.com
shijie. http://zooproot.blogspot.com
sid. http://xanga.com/sidney84
steph tham. http://craftybitch.diaryland.com
suko. http://nastynice.net
suwin. http://suwin.blogspot.com
victor <3 http://shinova.inner-room.net
yazid. http://yaziddy.blogspot.com
z. http://xanga.com/prettypunkd


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* evidently life changes.

words choked out at 06:09 pm on Saturday, December 04, 2004


did my hair on, urm i'm losing count of the days.


before the trip to the salon.


after the trip.

a twenty-five buckaroonies cut. i think i got wasted. the hairdresser did it like mondo hawttt. but now, i dont have a clue how to style my hair. and, i look so like the day before. hah!

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anywoo, i'm really losing count of the days.
i'm doing late nights again.
partying at black and ms.
supper at changi village and simpang bedok.
watching incredibles for the third time.
i so am losing sleep.
everything is depriving me of keeping a healthy body.
work is f-k".

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i'm on the verge of insanity.
work is f-k" in case you didnt hear me out.
daddy is being an A-hole.
f-k". someone get him a replacement please.
if only i'm in for the money, not.

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rach//siddums(lido): before partying at black.
 

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z, sid, eveline, casie and jill:

idk how i can find happiness in life without yall. thanks so much for knocking so much sense into me. i <3 you all so much cuz you all totally rock hardcore!

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i've so many issues that idk how to solve. my worst pains are words i cannot say.
this blog is too dangerously a threat to me by writing out my private life.

if you're a friend, i'll tell you. :)



anywho, i've got reconciled with lia. maybe i was too rash, she was too agitated, but i'm so glad we burst the bubble together.


twenty more days to christmas, uh yea.

 
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* gifts are curses.

words choked out at 03:27 pm on Sunday, November 28, 2004


my birthday was effin ok. wasnt awesome but was just great.
the people who came were mostly unexpected.

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anil, haikel, rozi and mat, cheryl, sidney,
samuel, jacqueline, brother don, sista evelyn, erica,
fidi and bf, azizah and kazzen, fidel, curtis,
magdalene and leefei,
thanks for your lovelies and i'm really glad yall came. :)
yall made my 18th a really happy one for real. hugs!



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the expected ones sadly didnt arrive at my doorstep.
i wish they did. i guess they will never know how important they were to me.

the night was spent at black.
fidel left early cuz we two had a silly misunderstanding. was pretty sad that our one year anniversary had to turn out this way.
z and mat went back early so i sort of lost interest in dancing.
met shane, jill, scott, ian, edwin, ash, darrel and issac there. felt much better after that.
ok, the most atrocious thing i darn forgot was pix.
we took barely none. the few turned out bad.
oh well, being eighteen feels totally awesome. *z: winks.

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yesterday was rather unexpected. the whole afternoon i was watching finding nemo (hah!) prolly 3x.
it sure rocks balls. i was practically laughing effin loads the whole time and to think i've watched it like more than 15x already. lol. cartoon freak you bet.
and the sms came, sid and i were intended to go black so we met ash, darrel and desmond at pacific. lazy me for not wanting to eat anything the whole day, my stomach was urging for my mouth to munch so ash was nice enough to bring us curry puffs. had hot milo and was effin awesome. everything's awesome when you are in the situation i'm in. :)

thanks to someone, we didnt get to club at black so we went to vintage instead. the place was good but not good enough for us lot to spend a night so we went over to zombie instead. was pretty awesome though i kinda expected reggae. ok, blame it on my knowledge but it was effin bad heavymetal that night so we stayed around for a little longer. they played darts. card tricks. matching games and yea, couldnt stand a minute of not being able to hear what each other was talking so we lot left.

took a cab to rouge. there was some CJC party going on and i heard from fidel later on the ratio of girls to guys were 1:10. lol! had some drinks at acid and i tell ya, NEVER EVER DRINK MARTINI PEACH!! intended to talk to fidel but he was giving me the cold shoulder, i dont know why. was feeling kinda down. ash and sid were there all the time so i felt better. went straight home after that, felt kinda emo which i dont know why but still, life goes on.

there are so many things my heart cant contain which i feel so strong about. my worst pains are words i cannot say. gifts are curses.

my girlfriends, you know. :)

sid, thanks for everything. 
you have given me the chance to make the right decision. love you effin loads girl.



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* rouging.

words choked out at 09:42 pm on Sunday, November 21, 2004


last night was unexpected.
was planning a rather boring night, be a walking skeleton in my house watching local channels.
so i thought, why not have sid to bunk over my place again? then we could eat as much satay and otah as we want. but cheers to our contentment, we ended up at rouge and our stereos were intruded by annoying house musik. sort of got used to it anyhow after months of work in rouge and acid.

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SIDdums DOOdums,

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY my HOMIE sweety OMIE OMIE!!
hope you enjoyed the night at rouge tho the musik was awfully tasteless. love you to beechhss.
sushi at sentosa tomorrow ya? xoxoxxooxxx


ps: i'll brew you something even stronger than boston beach party,        soon.

:)

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pix pix pix:






 
damn my lazy eyes. :x


i AM the poison apple.


that extra prop is cliff.


reminds me of that silly so called arty japanese film, ozumaki.


a dead rose and a pale girl.

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WOO effin HOO. im 18 in 2 days. me, him, our one year anniversary in 2 days. :)
i so want to go JB soon, shopping rant.



the used.






good night darlings.
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* the long gone.

words choked out at 03:16 am on Friday, November 19, 2004


i f-k" hate blogdrive. the long entry i've been so excited to create wiped out. f-k f-k f-k blogdrive. f-k.

gon make this quick and fast. my anger's f-k" me.

anyhoo my week was effin awesome and THAT's the reason for not blogging for weeks.

[skip:]

f-k blogdrive.


monday the boyfriend crashed over for some ps fun. dark alliance's sex!


tuesday the boyfriend and i played dark alliance again. i f-k" hate bloodmire tho. the music's out off input and that's that. it haunts my stereo i swear.

EVERYONE'S NICE AND LOVE IS TUESDAY!!

my sweet boy left at ninePM. was bored without a doubt so sidney was being sweet and nice to bunk over. jason was nice with double toppings to ride sid all the way to my house in his red malaysian style bike. (i wonder why. lol) my uncle was being santa as always to buy us satay, otah and rojak. we threesome ate by the pool. sid predicted we'll have diarrhoea and she so rock cuz we were indeed in gastrointestinal distress for days.. hah!

ROZIANAH my HOMIE BITCHY OMIE OMIE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY my homie bitchy omie omie.
z, i'm really sorry for screwing up your birthday plans and i really did not mean it. you know i love you. :) wear that necklace aight? xoxoxoxoxox

wednesday the boyfriend is back in rouge. he loves his bartending job so i shant say a word. its hard not to miss him tho. no more sticking like glue. sighh!
anywho the day was wicked. met sam, jaq and z in town fo our ol skul gathering. was totally neat as i missed all of them. <333333 there were at least a someone buying something at almost every hour. the awfully sad thing was sid and i had to splurge on nothings.

[skip:]

pix pix pix

 


went to black for the night with sid. saw shane, jill and wanling. all's neat cuz i've not seen shane for more than a year and wanling's for months. peline's way awesome for a dancer. i so need fergie in me. okay so i only had a glass plus coke to please the boyfriend as he wanted me to be his neat girl.

morbid it can be but its been really hard for fluids to evacuate normally due to our killa menu:

supper: satay. otah. rojak.
breakfast: otah with bread (rach.) fried rice (sid.)
lunch: tom yam noodles.
tea: grava. yami yoghurt.
dinner: tom yam noodles (sid.) korean noodles (rach.)
supper: nuggets @ mac. hotdogs with samba sauce @ home.

everything's a flux. and evidently hot stuffs make your bowels move. a lesson learnt.

anywhot the DJ is hella hell awful. his self-proclaimed remixes are bull.
hchello mr DJ, we so aint shaking cuz you are bull. we cant get spazzed out just because of you.

had nuggets and coke at mac during our off the dancefloor break. and blame it on my curiousity to use the EZ card and now i have to use shackles for public rides. went to orchard tower's 7-11 for God knows what cuz we didnt planned to buy anything. was pretty fun to see those trans and i'm bewildered by their boobs. goodness gracious, implants are getting real for show.

i was missing my boyfriend throughout the whole day so i had to push sid all the way to somerset just to get some cuddles from my dear boy. was real glad to see jazman and diana again. and i really missed getting the good ol punches from jaz. i miss rouge too just that there's no way anyone can make me do late nights again, ever.
the boyfriend was rattling away as usual about his day's work while waiting for the transport service. *yawns.
and so me and sid took a cab home after the boyfriend left. ate hotdogs with samba as mentioned which were hella good. bowels were reactings again but all's good. you win some, you lose some.


thursday sid and i woke up at two today. we wanted to make some money by selling our A&F and adidas stuffs so we headed to her place to take her adidas jacket. her room's totally rad! blue's cute! and her waterbed's sex! it was really hard for me to push myself off tho. hah!
next stop was at her aunt's. sid's dog, gucci (its male, lol!) was there. gucci's sooooooooooo cute and such a fluff-less white thing.

was a long long ride to town. the bus was f-k" cold so sid had to make do w her adidas jacket. attempted to take some pix but all's awfully bad. oh well!

went in the vintage shop in far east. the shopowner and some bitch, probably just some part-timer, were pretty annoying and as expected, we got rejected with the words by the man, 'we've got exactly the same as yours. thanks anyway'
thanks my A-hole!! one look at the shop and you'll know their stuffs are no way closer to ours. the owner's prolly unable to afford bringing in any other stuffs. an empty shop. hah!


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*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* the boyfriend's on the phone so gon continue blogging on the thursday. hugs.

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i'm missing my dear boy so badly right now.

it aint so bad rach, just a phone away.



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* at the drive.

words choked out at 12:37 pm on Sunday, November 07, 2004


my latest spend: the black fr charlesandkeith.




my week was awesome. will might make an entry on it.

gon play tennis with my dad in the evening.
we're gon have loads of fun cuz the last i've played with dad was more than 3 years ago..

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i <3 you fidel.



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* my unforgivable expenditures.

words choked out at 12:59 am on Thursday, November 04, 2004


the result of online stores:



and to think that there are still heaps more in my wardro
be..

paypal shouldnt have existed in the first place. its evil..



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* [edit:] pix fo show.

words choked out at 11:51 pm on Tuesday, November 02, 2004


pls refresh if pix aint loading :)
(01 November 2004) swim // pebble bay pix:


 

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(today) swensens // changi airport pix:

 



bye Y
till then i'll leave your insecurities hanging.




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pls refresh if pix aint loading :)
(01 November 2004) taka pix:



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(today) post tennis pix:




bye Y
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* slogging off sunday.

words choked out at 11:43 pm on Sunday, October 31, 2004


today was pretty ok.
fidel, don and i went to church.
fidel was bragging about his new checkered shirt which i think its soooo chatsworth.
don's still freaking me out even after all these years with his blown-off + hair.
maybe i'll post up some pix of the afrodisiac.
he (d-o-n) was sleeping throughout the service. i didnt think that it has to do w the sermon cuz its pretty good and this made me come to the conclusion that he and melvin had a real guuuuuuud time at some girl's house last night. he refused to give further details so i shant say anymore.
r

anyhoo, fidel and i dropped off don after service and we walked around city hall malls.
there's this pony shirt which looks soooooooo gud on fidel but he dislikes it. *sheeessshh!!*

bought this cd at hmv.
these french boys are
the cutest livings and
have the sweetest
voices around i tell ya.
if you listen to the
vienna boys, you should
buy this.










citylink's hmv doesnt have give up and i am the movie BALLS when i sooooooooooooo wanted them and i've to put them back up on my wishlist... *grrrrr.


sid and i gon swim in the morn, tennis in the noon tomorrow. i'll prolly gon play tennis again w my godma in the evening.

anywho, we (s-i-d,i) gon watch Missing now. la dee da. i'm pretty sure the sun wont get us in the morn cuz i need at least ten/twelve hours of sleep.



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[edit:]

i
Y you fidel.
:)



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