To the bloody screwed-up stupidity personified moronic critical studies head of department baboon - MISTER JEFFERY SAY,

i swear i could have kick your balls if only you have two. i only left out 2 bloody subheadings and i got a fked up 25/100 from you!! BLOODY 2 MISSING SUBHEADINGS and you had to take 75 marks from me!! dont mention doing injustice to pearlyn too. she just typed a stupid little ';' in her footnotes and you had to fk her up with a 35/100!! BLOODY COMMA and you had to take 65 marks from her!! and what makes our lives perfect is we can't complain to the head of department prolly cause YOU are the head of department and our bloody mister backpacker; the principal, is always travelling around the world. i swear if you're gon fail us for our presentation and bloody critical paper, i'll ask eyor-eyor to cut off your testicles nice and slowly.

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yesterday was just bad bad bad till the evening. i went to the print shop, with a heavy head just after bloody morning lecture with mister Jeffery Say and guess WHAT? i totally forgot to transfer my Freehand files into my HDD!!! i'm such a muddlehead. a stupid silly dork. so i had to rush back home to transfer everything and rush back down to the shop. thank goodness i live only 5 minutes away. heh heh.

ok so after printing our layouts feeling quite satisfied with ourselves for completing the whole project within a day, we went back for our tutorial and guess WHAT again? the submission date was actually in two weeks time. Of all things, with so many projects to hand in this week, Mister Sheh Ming had to lie to us about the deadline being yesterday..
urgh! i'm such a stupid silly dork to believe him. -groans-

anywoo, things got better as soon as sid got home around five plus. we got dressed pretty pretty and took two buses down to holland v and met the rest of the bf.nut fellas. and as expected we had to wait for everyone to turn up till 8 plus. but that was ok cause we treated ourselves to hagen daz ice-cream. our legs were quite shagged anyway cause all of us had to take a bus down six avenue and walked like almost a mile to get to fatnick's house. bbq was alright, sidney and victor kept me company here and there so i didnt felt so bored. drinks were superb though they were really sweet. condiments of coke, orange juice, sprite, rose syrup, tiger beer with lots of ice cubes cause there wasnt any water. food was alright. there wasnt much though. there were like 30 people and fatnick had to like cook only a small little container of beehoon. good intentions though. had hotdogs, burgers and the usual chicken wings. all's good though. there were other means of entertainment too. some boys got their first wedgie from the rest of the guys. effin funny i swear.
left the bbq around 12 plus with sid, got back home and watched van wilder. its effin funny i swear. several scenes almost sent me out of the room gagging. Taj is one funny guy. its really hard to do a role with a straight face throughout the movie. but trust me, i'll never eat a pastry again. if you have yet to watch this mediocre movie, please - no brain activity allowed.

gonna catch a movie with sid tonight. uhh not unless there's a change of plans.

ps: if you see any images with an red x button while browsing through my other entries, thats because i've deleted some images which doesnt deserve to be here :)

i'm back.
with a big smile.

and thats because i've finally dealt with my feelings. however, now i'm left with one problem, i'm financially broke. so please don't hesitate to donate, i've been nice, you all should know. heh heh

and sorry for the long wait guys. i'm back to my stereotyped life, back to doing many many many final year projects and back to seeing you guys one by one again. plus, i'm so sorry if i've not really contacted some of you. you all probably be saying 'rach lives by the policy of new friends come, old friends go'. but darlings, i live nothing of that sort. i still miss you all like crazy! (grins)

these days, i've to keep reminding myself time and time again not to be such a procrastinator.
ever since i left the interview room yesterday (rach, you're such a crackhead), i've decided i should plan my time management wisely.
ya i know! its been only less than a day but i'm starting i'm starting! okay.. i've already mounted my bloody pinkfoam together (trust me, i'll never take ceramics though its fun. too much work, too little patience) and am sitting on it right now, waiting for it to stick together. AND after blogging, i swear i'm gonna start doing my critical research.

see! rach isn't lazy after all...
PS: sid, i swear i make you sleep on the floor if you laugh.

anywoo, i'm so glad my interview's over. i was so effin nervous, the few minutes before entering the interview room were like the longest five minutes ever. i was practically folding my portfolio in and out rapidly and i kept saying 'hooooooot' under my heavy breathing every 5 seconds. BUT I'M SO GLAD ITS OVER!! in a few week's time, i prolly will worry again when the results are out. who knows, if all else fails i'll prolly end up in jewelry but then again, i love jewelry.

not that anything that i've said will interest you sweethearts but i've not been blogging for more than a month therefore i've the rights to tell you all everything that excites me. haha

alright. just to let you guys know that i've once again set up a new msn messenger account. i know i'm such an irritant but my old account gave me so much problems.
bling2styluz@gmail.com
take it down, add me up :)

i might be setting up another website soon, probably in partnership with a friend. i know this sucks but the current site sucks even more. i'll let you all know. okay, i should go. my vocabulary seems to only consists of 'ands' and 'buts' for this entry. bye bye and till then, love love :)

[edit:]

to 'Name' who left me the words below in my previous entry's comments space,

	Posted by Name @ 03/27/2005 07:59 PM PST
	you know i'll be here. besides, its only a $7 cab ride away ;p

may i know who you are?  

i know this is too sudden..

i'll be away. i feel trapped inside this place. it'll be long, i hope.

to the ones that i trust:
i know whatever happens, whoever that may ask, you all will make promises a promise and let nothing leaks out. 
we can only kiss or kill like what life is meant to be.
thanks sweethearts for hearing my rants and not judging me for what some think i am but who i really am. this is what matters most importantly.

i'll check my email often. its bling2styluz@gmail.com
so please, if you want to get heard, i'm always an email away :]

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i shouldnt say but its only right if i do. i'm sorry.
i'll [ah finally] move on like you did, you'll see :]

you're floating in my atmosphere that makes me so hard to breathe.
it took me so long to notice what was hanging over me.
my friends say you're a castastrophe that i can't see.
for all this, is what makes me want to flee.


because i know you'll never pick up the pieces when i fall and crumble. definitely never for me.

they say the one who hurts you the most is the only one who can make you happy.
can you prove me otherwise?

and in this world i've been living in for the nineteenth year, i still don't understand this phrase 'true love hurts'.
go pour yourself a bucket.

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for without explanation, you make everything seem so clear.

you all know you're the biggest sweethearts; the ones i can call my sisters and brother.
rozi. sid. don.
 

no shopping spree this post chinese new year celebration. i've decided to donate all to The Rachels' bank account.

sorry darlings if i've not been picking up or replying your texts these past few days. i've just came back from Malaysia and the trip was a last minute decision. anywoo, i'm in a rush again (hur hur) to meet up my bud.

click HERE for picture post!
[error in picture post has been fixed. :] click again!]

watched Hotel Rwanda with my two good ol buddies - vic and lex. its been like almost 3 years since i've last saw vic so today was pretty enjoyable just like good ol times :] speaking of the movie, the ending was definitive and good was triumphant. and to think, "when will the world pay attention?". it'll be certainly pleasant to hear answers of "there's always hope". however, i find myself hard to swallow in the words of what the colonel said to Rusesabagina - "we think you're a dirt.. you're not even a nigger, you're an african." sad to say, there's still little to disabuse rwandans of this notion. and what Michael J. Kavanagh said is so true - "without urgent action, we'll be watching Hotel Congo by 2014."

on another note, I'VE YET TO SHOP FOR THE NEW YEAR!! but now, i've other things to worry more about like assignments, assignments and assignments. you know how i dread animation. i'm certainly not the type who can sketch hundreds all day, frame by frame and making sure the animations go smoothly. my eyes contact with paper is like 2cm, they prolly will fail on me soon.

replies reppplies:

imee: i've linked you <3.

Han_<3: we'll keep in touch, promise :] xoxo!

Aurie (Lauria): thanks <3. http://www.gtmcknight.com/buttons/ <-- there you go.

Emobabe05: i heart you! keep in touch :]

k e n g i e <3: thanks for the tag hun! will drop by more often, promise! :)

lost_inXconfusion: aw dearest <3, thanks! keep in touchie. xoxo

[x]-->katie: thanks <3, i heart you :]

<x3 Jayme <x3: you're v purdy too! :] keep in touch dood, laters

*((.daphne.))*: hi darling! hahas, yea. black stars somehow brighten my day :] cya soon! <33

Sammy*: thanks for leaving me <3 sweets, we'll keep in touch :] hugs


till then, i'll leave your insecurities hanging.

i'm in a rush to meet my old buddies in town. will do a proper update when i'm back. :]

in the meantime, i've posted soulful food for entertainment.

Friday, 4th February 2005
[awaiting bus 16:]







[ride to town:]





[at waterfront:]















[in the burbs of my room:]



laters darlings! [ps: thanks fo the tags huns, will do replies soon.]

well, i cant say that this few days' been wicked exciting. but i did had my fair share of fun.

went rouge yesterday with sid and my sis, eveline. horrid. very very horrid i should say. left early to chill with my brother don, marcus and justin. played cards and that's when i had my moments - don's first night of playing card games. everyone had a good laugh with don being such a slow learner but soon it got annoying when don started bragging about having the beginner's luck and all. you know when you have to go through all the trouble explaining what's straight, colors, royal flush, house etc.? pretty hilarious though.

yep.

i shouldnt have bothered saving up effin d to buy him a gift.

with only $7 in my posb account, i really shouldnt have bothered.

ok, i know. i totally upset his whole birthday thinger all because i couldnt keep up trying to entertain him when he was all bulls. but when your ex who's been saying that he wants you back and all keeps talking on the phone with a girl throughout the whole bus ride, who can argue with me for being pissed and disappointed?

that's not all. the ring that he used to wear for ages which 'suppose' to have lots of sentimental values has now been replaced with another ring.

so the whole day ended up with both of us taking different transport rides in different directions. and what was so contridicting was the fact that he text me saying he loves me alot and wants me to reconsider him right after texting the words 'you fucken ruin my birthday, i shouldnt have let you fool my love.. just go away'

i know fidel, its your birthday. and i never had the intention of 'fucken ruining' your birthday. and whatever that happened was totally uncalled for. because we humans all have weakness in complying to one another. but why did you have to spare the thoughts of my feelings on this day?

[edit:] dating in single life mode will do better till commitment level comes. you're still my favorite accident. :) [/edit]

can you please spoon-feed me in another timezone when i'm ready to completely ignore the negatives of life?

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on another note, this song goes out to my two you-know-who distant besties. :] you know why anna [grins] and please, take your crap at another level. heh heh!
thanks kris for the long distant call an hour back which was so the right time. hearing your voice again makes my bus ride an enjoyable one despite the upsetting day. lauffff yawl <33

by the way, i still have afew GMAIL invites up fo grabs! comment below darlings. [winkwinks.]

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replies reeeeeplies:

z: i will darling :] let's go waterfront more often and laugh our lives away. because in times like this, we need each other the most. hugs

*((.daphne.))*: thanks hun, laufff lauff you..

anttt: bitch this weekend.. AND please download msn messenger!!!

fidel: urm, happy birthday :]

passerby: you leave no contacts behind, how do you expect me to give you one? rofl

gdfdrtertfdgfg: thanks for the love. you are?

[click to enlarge pix.]
22nd January 2005:
drum&bass night at mad monks

 

chillout at pebble bay

 

picture posts first. its 4:11 in the morning and the procrastinator's gon skip school for a long undeserved sleep. ;) will do the replies when i'm urm, wide awake.

[edit:]

pssstt! i've GMAIL at last!! whoot whoot! can you believe it? 1GB all for myself!!

ok, i aint that selfish and santa rach's gonna give out 5 gmail invites to whoever's been nice and good this year :] heh heh!! so yea, leave me some <3333.

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anttt band and kris bee, i miss yawl like crazy!!!!!
remember how getto like that we were, playing "baloncesto" with a trashcan and a tape ball? can't wait to see yawl soon but it won't happen that's for sure till you get your dad to sponser your tic back here anttt and stop travelling around the universe kris.
well, as long as yawl have our hellogoodbye's call n return on the playlist, dance around in squares and think of me. :]

brother dearest just got himself a 40GB external hard drive with casing and all at only $169 which is hella good because the best part is, mummy dearest gonna sponser me one too!

ok, when a guy asks for my number, i figure he wants one of two things or both. its either he wants to get in between my legs or he wants to save my soul.

i'm not too particularly interested in either one.

anywoo, was at rouge two nights ago with my brother. fidel was working that night but that was okay cuz we had a good talk about certain things. [ps: i'll celebrate your birthday with you no matter what happens.] :)
all's good now. and when you're talking about trust, its very logical to trust someone who you have known for many many years rather than a stranger who does the walkie talkie. makes great sense indeed.

as for yesterday, i did nothing but slept till 6pm. everyone was at home. and when i'm talking about everyone, i meant EVERYONE - my grandpa, grandma, cuzzies, godma, aunties, uncles, sister, her boyfriend .. .. the list goes on. i'm still traumatized by their karaoke singing. at least i gained lots of crabs, tom yam fish and bak qut teh.

if you hadn't bothered to take notice of the time, its 6:52 in the morning and the reason why i ain't on the bed yet is cuz my brother and his friends have just left the premises.
the night went like this. went on a bus ride to town and met sid up at acid bar. was thinking of going to rouge with the intention of 'dontwannatalkaboutitcuzithurts' but i was f-ken broke. 3 gold dollar coins is what i call f-ken broke. anywoo, sid stayed on at acid cuz she was gonna spend the night at some hotel party. so waterfront was where my brother and our homies ended up at. seriously, i wished i could have been at rouge but part of me felt a strong wave of dejection.

when it comes to relationships, i still feel inferior about them. and in one month's time, i know i'll straighten my thoughts by then. i hope i will.

you know, i really wish you'll call. seeing you again will do great but for now, i can do with just one call.

- leave me some love darlings.